Remember to Dream

Ah, I forgot to post up the Bobs and Bobby. Guess who's Bobby!  (psft, the buttom row shows different perspectives of him. He is also the one wearing the black shirt. The rest of them are Bobs)
 



And I am reading up on the difference between love and infatuation, a subject I find really interesting, and I really liked this passage.

"Infatuation and love are two separate emotions, and there are many differences between them. They are, however, similar in some ways. Infatuation is like a shiny new pair of dress shoes, where as love is the comfy old sneakers you’ve had for years. Infatuation is fun, while it lasts. Eventually, though, the night out ends, and you slip into the sneakers that fit perfectly, even if they are starting to give at the seams and the tread is worn out. This is what happens in relationships. As the brilliance of infatuation fades, couples move into a contented place where, even if there are problems, they know they can depend on one another to provide the love and support they need. That is the difference between infatuation and love."

Sitting here thinking about the fact that nothing really is going on my life right now which is surprising yet really refreshing.

Now, I don't usually like to write journals with updates about my life because I don't find it very interesting so I don't know why you would but I thought why not? I've only mentioned my newest comic Bobby only a little bit, so with much restriction I thought to share more about it.
Which is actually really funny to me because I share all my work and I don't ever actually finish any of it. So me even mentioning the book might be taboo on my part while my friends sigh shaking their heads at my failed attempts to look like a comic book artist.

Speaking of that actually, I feel like maybe I should explain what happened to Dreaming of Illusions, a story I have been working on for the past few years. Well, after a few things got swept under the rug after SDCC I suddenly found myself looking at myself and who I was. Dreaming of Illusions sure was fun at first; trying to tell this story of how hope gets stripped from some one by the realities of those that are around him and how he impacts friends in the process. However, during that time I had been experiences mounds of stress. Which threw me down roads of self esteem issues, that I'd like to not touch up again. Drifting me far away from what the actual story line was supposed to be about I constantly battled myself on the actual direction the story was going to take. I ended up over analyzing it and crying at every failed attempt I had made in trying to draw my characters. For me, I had wanted to execute the story PERFECTLY which, I believe, left me not wanting to do my story. I never drew any of the characters with this fear of failing. But, I failed to see that failing was apart of the process. People fail. Showing failures through the comic book is all apart of the fun. It helps others see that your just human simply trying to entertain the individuals reading it. Don't get so caught up in everything your doing wrong and just have fun with the over all result. Laugh and move on.

In the end, because of the constant battling and because it's been 3 years, I decided to stop Dreaming of Illusions. Sorry Nat, I had handed you the 3 first episodes. I hope you enjoy them and all that they had stood for. Maybe some time in my life I'll go back into this story and re approach it but probably not.

For my new story I am working with my sister Heather. Kind of scary actually because we ended smacking each other with erasers the first time we tried to do "The S.E.Z." Despite my fears it's actually been quite a bit of fun. This time we are just doing it with just a general idea of where we want it to go. So far that's been my favorite part actually. Drew that characters with not much in mind on their back grounds. Changed themes around while writing. Sometimes we'd actually just take out scenes we originally wanted to set a specific mood. Changing, forming, and seeing the result of problems is absolutely interesting.

Bobby originally was to be this helpless character made from robotic parts then over time we decided to make him into a pastry made by a factory. He still holds all the metaphorical aspects we want him to have but we twisted it to how we want to see fit as the story progresses.

Anyway, look forward to it. It will be done. I've already drawn all the character sheets that can be seen past journal entries and on my flickr account. The first page is sketched and half of the story is written and finalized. The synopsis is done along with character descriptions. We've also done all this within just 2 to 3 weeks so it's all pretty exciting.

Wish me luck! Time to do more pages.

Damn, he's hot.

Oh yea, check the tits on this fine little lady.